Last leg of the run………….
It is hard to even put words on paper about how I feel writing the final blog for Sophie’s Run II. Many have asked me if I am happy that the run is over. To be honest, it is bitter-sweet. Physically, the running was getting tougher and tougher. I was starting to hit a wall and was happy that a break was near. Emotionally, I am not sure I am ready for Sophie’s Run to be over. I feel a little depressed that we are home and another successful run has come to an end. I have already gone out for a short run today to help me get through this feeling of sadness that Sophie’s Run II is now completed.Today’s run helped me prepare for the future and the many wonderful awareness opportunities that have developed throughout this run.
Arriving to Parliament Hill was everything and more than I expected. I felt many mixed emotions as we made our way to an entourage of family and friends waiting to hug us at the finish line. The feeling I had finishing at Parliament Hill was different than when I finished in New York City. I feel that I have come a long way in the 8 years since our last run. New York City was an awareness run, but it was also a way for me to escape the pain I didn’t want to deal with after my mom passed away. Finishing at Parliament Hill was different. I finally feel like I am exactly where I should to be in a life without my mom. I have now accepted she is gone and that I cannot bring her back. This acceptance has helped me to finally enjoy my life. Living life doesn’t mean I have forgotten about her. Living my life means that I am keeping her memory alive.
A few of my close friends have shared their experiences with me about losing their moms. One of my closest friends, Debbie, lost her mom to cancer as well. I was lucky to have met her mom. A beautiful and talented lady who made beautiful quilts. Even though her mom has passed on, her quilts are keeping many people warm and enriching their lives in ways they may not know. My friend Meaghan has told me about how ladybugs remind her of her mom. Every time I see a ladybug, I think of Meaghan and her mom. As I was packing for Sophie’s Run II, I found two ladybugs in my room. I smiled because I somehow felt that it was a sign that the run was going to be ok and that I would also find signs of my mom along the way. My sister-in-laws sisters told me how a “dime” reminds them of their mom and another close family friend is reminded of her aunt through chipmunks. Until you have lost someone near and dear to you, you don’t realize how a loved one finds ways to let you know they are still in your life and watching over you. Every time I see a robin, I am reminded of my mom. She used to sit looking out our kitchen window at the robins, often calling my brother and me up to see them. On Sunday, our second last run, a robin flew by and landed on the patch of grass beside the sidewalk we were running on. I couldn’t believe how my mom knew to come and visit me right at that moment. I smiled and quickly realized that she is still with me……..guiding me through the next stage in my life.
I have many people to thank for their support, kindness, and love. I will be thanking each and every one of you individually. I would like to thank my Dean Susan Somerville for being the first person to say yes to Sophie’s Run II. Without her believing in me, I would not be here writing this blog to you all today. I am honoured to also call Susan my friend and the words she spoke to me at the finish line will forever be with me.
To my partner in crime, Natalie Atkinson, you truly are my other hero. To take time off work to support me on two Sophie’s Runs, how do I even begin to thank you. You are a beautiful soul and more importantly a beautiful person. Those whose lives you have touched are the lucky ones. I am lucky that you allowed me into your life. Thank you xoxo
To Mary Jo, thank you for being our third party for the run. Taking time off work to be our driver and leading us to the end was a difficult task. Thank you for everything.
To my friends and family, thank you for all of your support. I have personal messages for you all because you have all touched my life in a special way. I am beyond thankful.
Until the next run or journey, my blog will be put on hold. Thank you for allowing me into your lives and for following Sophie’s Run II.